Young Spirit- Old Soul

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You know this is going to be a rough recap when the thing I loved most about the episode was everything involving Esposito.

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Thank you, thank you, thank you ! Reading my dash, seing everyone like “Oh my god finally ! It was perfect”, I was starting to wonder If I was a weird alien coming from another planet ! 

Your review pretty much sums up everything I thought about that episode and about season 5 (and your story about the Black Plague made me laugh so hard ! I needed it so thanx ^^)

(Sorry by advance for my poor English // A tired french girl).

That’s quite sad to admit, but this is really how I feel three days before the final of season 5.

I’ve been a huge fan of Castle since may 2011. I ran into the show the night “To Love and Die in LA” was airing (not a bad episode to start with right ?) and since then I’ve been so much involved…It was almost insane sometimes.

I’ve wrote fanfics, I’ve made videos, I spent hours on Photoshop, trying to illustrate with some brushs, lights and inspired quotes the way these characters made me feel inside. 

I’ve loved a lot of TV Shows over the years, but I’d never been into one like this. And I think one of the major reason why I “fell so much in love” with this show was it’s organic writing. 

We all kinda grew up with television, we know how these things work. In order to maintain the audience attention, showrunners always need to play with our feelings, with their characters. You sometimes feel betrayed by the show you love so much just because they feel the need to ruin everything to make you come back next september.

With Castle there was nothing like that. What I loved the most was the fact I never felt cheated off by some poor writing. The characters were always acting the way they were supposed to and I sometimes forgot they were just fictional.

We’ve waited four years before Caskett become canon. But the wait was worthwhile because everything felt organic, they created so much more than “a simple love story” between those two…All those things they shared during the first 4 seasons, how they learnt to make a place for eachother…It was stunning !

After Always aired last may I was really confident. I really did believe that season 5 would be wonderful. There was so much things to discover now that those two were finally together, and when we heard during the summer that their love would stay hidden for few episodes I was very excited…It just promised us so much delightful moments

9 months and 23 episodes after, I must admit that I’ve lost a lot of my confidence. All the things I was dying to see on screen this year were rushed or simply eluded. This relationship has felt kinda “off” for me most of the time… And except for Probable Cause and Still, there was not so much highlights at the end.

I’ve seen the promos for Watershed, then the Sneak Peeks, and I really don’t get it…How characters that felt so “true”, how a writing which felt so “organic”, how all of this could have change that much in just one year of time ?

I don’t recognize them anymore, I don’t recognize the show I felt in love with. I’m maybe a minority in this fandom, but for me season 5 has mostly been a huge disappointment. They had beautiful brushes, beautiful colors, and they made a poor painting…

I really hope Watershed will prove me wrong and be a wonderful season final, just like Knockout and Always, because deep down I’m still that fan who was dying between 2 episodes and was sometimes living only for mondays.

But I’m not that confident anymore. I miss those times where I could say “In Marlowe I trust” and actually believe it. 

(Damn I wish they teach us english more properly in France. It’s frustrating sometimes not being able to express exactly what I want to express ><)

That may sound weird, but after re-watching Still for like the 7 or 8th time, I think I’m more affected and touched by the “Rick” than I’am by the “I love you”. 

My biggest fear about that crucial moment was that Kate would say it during another life threatening situation. Unfortunately they choosed to deal with it that way…

I guess I would have prefered that we had the opportunity to experience this first “I love you” from her in a less “radical” moment. I was all “agagaga” watching it of course, but a part of me was also a little bit disappointed.

When she called him “Rick” on the contrary it made me shiver.  

Throughout the whole episode she called him Castle, like she always do, keeping a sort of fun and teasing distance between them. That’s his nickname, the way she almost always refered to him until now. She even call him like that when they’re alone at the loft. It’s an affectionate nickname but it also keep some distance between them, like she’s protecting herself in some way. As long as he stays “Castle”, he’s still her fun partner, her friend, her “boyfriend”, but things are not that serious yet.

I think that’s what made that simple word so beautiful. At the most dramatic moment, when he’s leaving for good, when she is completely alone, emotionally naked, she finally let out that simple “Rick” . She no longer speaks to the funny writer, the kid in a man’s body. She talks to the man she loves, with no barriers.

That, for me,  was the strongest and intense moment of this episode. These four simple little letters made my day (and probably my week also). 

Now I just want a simple I love you, without a big danger coming or another life threatening situation…just because she do love him and she wants him to know how important he is for her.

I’m quite afraid after reading that new spoiler about 5x24 Watershed : X

It looks like the episode will revolve around Castle questionning himself about the relationship, Beckett questionning herself about her career path, and then an unexpected thing changes everything. 

What could change everything except for a baby thing ? I really hope I’m wrong and I misinterpret that new spoiler, but I really can’t figure anything else that would make sense. 

I really think it’s too soon for a baby.

What do you think ?

I don’t get the point of all this “Still” war. I mean c’mon guys, even if 1000 or 2000 of us are watching the episode today, there will still be 10 Millions people in front of their screen next monday ! The part of the fandom on the net is not that big !

And don’t forget that a huge part of us is not even living in the US, so the fact we watch the episode today instead of next tuesday has absolutely no impact on the show. Some of you are saying that it is showing disrespect towards the team and the actors, but do you really think that enjoying an episode with all our soul is showing disrespect to them? Of course the fans watching Still today and living in the U.S. will watch the episode again on TV next Monday! They love Castle, they realize that the ratings are very important! If I was american I would watch it again when it airs on ABC !

So stop judging others for a choice that belongs to each one of us. In eight days, all this masquerade will have no meaning at all anyway.